Thursday, August 10, 2006 @5:06 pm
national day was yesterday!!! so nice the performance... i think i will miss the national stadium....
i dunno why i keep wanting to post lately... i think i very depressed... i keep bottling up things in my heart and i dun tell anyone...
sometimes im very tired... tired of wearing a mask... sometimes i just want to ignore the whole world... sometimes i just want to live in a world of mine... far away from the rest of the world... sometimes i think ppl are very fake...
maybe if everyone removes their mask the world will be a better place to live in... maybe if there are no such things like war peace will reign... maybe if there is no such thing as poverty ppl wont haf to live in hunger... maybe if ppl are not so evil i wont haf to keep getting hurt...
i think im changing... i dun think i used to be so pessimistic... i rmb i used to be the one to cheer ppl up... but now i am the one hu need others to cheer me up.... i think this yr i change a lot... maybe others dun see it... but i noe deep inside i changed... i see things differently... im no longer the me in pri sch... nor the me in lower sec... i start to bother a lot abt my grades... i set very high expectations of myself... i worry abt disappointing my parents... i worry whether i can get into jc... i worry abt my 'O's... i think i start to worry just like jie...
i dunno lah... my life is juz in a mess... i dunno how to cope with my studies and my piano...
-mag